you?

You know how sometimes you do things that you know you shouldn’t do…things that you know you’ve done before resulting in harsh consequence…a thing like staying up until 6 in the morning after working nearly 17 hours the previous day (shit…I don’t think I’ve EVER worked that long in a day…)…anyway…a thing that, the last time you did it, was probably a significant factor in you getting sick now that your able to use hindsight’s telescope on the proceedings? And you were just sick...again! But here you are...again...sitting at a computer screen, listening to music on headphones...

But it’s the first time you've felt calm in weeks…quiet on the inside…while alarmingly tired on the outside. You just want to stretch it out a little longer. You’ll be out in 10 minutes you keep telling yourself…you can feel it…but now…in this moment...the air is still.