lines in the sand

I’m trying real hard. The time is now. For once I want it to be for real. I want to stay on track. I've got a plan and I'm sticking to it.

But I don’t believe. Not really.

Something will happen. It always does. I know I’ve got to think positive…to shove those negative thoughts right out of my head…but life is so cruel to me sometimes. What did I do?

And then my chest sinks in and my legs get thinner and my eyes drop to the ground.

Nothing, Nowhere, Never.

How do you put all that behind you?