time stops

I haven't slept in over 72 hours.

I started a new job yesterday and barely survived. I turned in at 9pm last night in an attempt to get a good nights sleep, only to be kept awake all night by the stench of stale cigarette smoke and roaring bathroom ceiling fans.

And my rage.

I haven't slept in over 72 hours.

I'm as angry and frustrated as I've been in a long, long time. And it feels as if I'm totally powerless to do anything about it. I've got nowhere else to go...this is my home...and yet, I can't sleep here. I can't even eat here. I can barely even breath anymore.

I just want to go to sleep...but even that, I'm afraid, won't be enough after all of this.

Because I haven't slept in over 72 hours.