numb and awake

Yeah, things aren't going so good.  In a really bad headspace right now and it doesn't feel like there's a light at the end of the tunnel.  This is going to be a while.

My motivation, work ethic, and all around attitude are all quite low right now, and I honestly need to snap out of it.  The work is what it is.  Shit happens.  I need to learn how to deal with the negatives that get thrown our way everyday without letting them destroy me.  Destroy me.

Destroy me.

I honestly don't know who I am right now.